Bring Back the MOJO

A couple of days ago I posted about wanting to get my head back in the correct space and tackle this next round with a vengeance after pretty much wasting round 3.  Yes I have still lost weight, but not as much as I wanted to.  

Both Julie and I decided that this week, after cup day, we were going to get back on track.  Training was still a little hit and miss, but last night saw me go for my first run in a few weeks.  It was only a gentle jog of 3.89 kilometres, but it was my first in a while and I was already going out this morning for a pre planned run with a training partner.  I just wanted to get out and do it.  I had plenty of reasons not to go, it was late (8:20pm) and it was about to bucket down.  I just put on a rain coat and off I went.  I managed to get home with only a little shower, but then the heavens opened up.   Someone wanted me to get out and do it. Michelle must have friends in high places.

First run in 4 weeks.

I went to bed knowing that I was up at 6:30 for a 5km run with Dayna and maybe Ben who was going to join us.  When I walked out the front door this morning it was an amazing morning.  Sunshine, no clouds and not a breath of wind.  No excuses not to go out and enjoy a run.  We managed to run 5kms and then come home and try some tabata training and then some boxing.  

Tabata was new to me, but I enjoyed the concept.  I just need to plan a bit better for our next session and have more exercises to choose from.  That will be my homework and I can see myself doing some solo tabata sessions to improve the exercises.  If you don't know what it is check it out.

SSS from today included 5 km run

I am just over the moon that now I have strung 2 decent sessions together in a row which I haven't done for a couple of weeks.  Not saying the mojo is back but I am feeling a lot better for having done it and I will be working towards making round 4 as big as round 2.  I want to get close enough to goal in the next round so I can look at doing Lean & Strong in round 1 next year.  Best I stick to my word and keep up the training.

My sort of MOJO - Not 12WBT approved

Motivation. Do You Really Need It?

  A quick check on the internet this morning gave me the below definitions of what motivation is:     

1. The reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way.
2. The general desire or willingness of someone to do something.
   
   Reading these definitions tends it seems to fit in with what we have traditionally known as the definitions for motivation, but I beg to differ on this point.  When I started the 12WBT I would have said that my motivation for doing so was to lose weight, become healthy and generally happier.  This would fit in with the majority of those people in the program.  But is that really motivation?  Is motivation only used for positive actions?  This may sound a little askew but stick with me.

 

During my first round, one of Michelle’s weekly clips was about motivation and how she believed it was not what it was made out to be and it all comes down to mindset (I am paraphrasing here) which I listened to at the time but never really allowed to sink in.  This may have been due to the fact that I was in a really good headspace and flying with my weight loss.  So why am I thinking about it now?  As I have mentioned in numerous posts this round, I am in a funk, not travelling as well as I had hoped or expected and I have been trying to ascertain why.  Normally I would have said (in the past, the old me) that I was lacking motivation, but that is not true.  Surely after losing 24.5kgs in the first round and being on stage at finale I need no further motivation.  Seeing the results and receiving all the positive feedback should have spurred me on to continue.  That is exactly what happened and I came home from Perth determined to mash round 2 fulfilling both of the requirements above and obviously motivated.

This is where I believe Michelle’s words come true.  If motivation is a reason for acting or behaving in a particular way, why would I be motivated to take my foot off the pedal?  Whilst I have still managed to lose weight this round, albeit a third of what I did last round, I have still seen some old habits creeping back in which I am not happy about.  Why would I be motivated to allow this to happen?  I am not and don’t want it to be the case.  My point here is, that it is not motivation that makes us choose a certain path, whether it be to lose weight or to sabotage ourselves.  The reasons for acting in a particular way or supposedly our desire or willingness to do something or not do it are not down to motivation, it is down to the most powerful tool we have to correct these choices and behaviours.  This is probably the hardest battle in losing weight and staying on the right path.  This is all about MINDSET!!!! 

This in my opinion is what sets Michelle and her program apart from all other weight loss programs and this is what I am battling with at the moment.  Michelle frequently touches on how we need to work on our excuses, willpower, goals, robot mode, JFDI and why?  No other program makes you face your demons, understand why you are in this position.  They give you the food, the ethos and the books, but they don’t address why you are there in the first place.  If I had not heard this from Michelle I would still be making some excuse and stating that I lacked motivation.  Whilst I am aware of my issues and how they have hindered me this round, I am still trying to work out how to overcome them and get back to the ME from last round.  One of the biggest pluses for me has been surrounding myself with a lot of other 12WBTers whom are all amazing individuals and there as a huge support.  People like Dayna Manser and Bec Green that have been training with us and remaining positive even when I have openly told them I am struggling have helped me realise that it can and will be done and that I can get passed this.  On Saturday we had a workout out that was far from brilliant, but we still had a workout.  It was one step ahead of where I would have been if the old me had been there.  Then I see the encouragement and support I have had from online friends on the forums and facebook with words of encouragement after my 200km bike ride and I know I am heading in the right direction.  Add to this, I was totally blown away by some kind words and an entry in her vlog last week from Heidi Wilson (aka ToughMudder) who said I was one of support people and rocks in this program.  Surely not!!!  This lady is a true champion of this program, a role model for everyone and a winner in all sense of the word, but for some reason she has found me a help in the last 6 months.  Even when I am not travelling well I am somehow helping others, but now I need to make sure that I am doing the same for me.

This has been me the last few weeks

After speaking to my wife yesterday and our recent blow out after our holiday, I want my mojo back.  I don’t need to be motivated as the definitions above explain, I just need to get off my arse and JFDI as I don’t need reasons for my behaviour to define who I am.  I have changed that mindset where I need a light at the end of the tunnel, now I know I can get up and take action, I just need to stop with all the excuses, and that is all they are and get back on the non fat wagon.

Look out round 4, I am going to smash you to pieces.  I want to be back on stage with a swagger and my mojo well and truly in tact.